Some people do not ever want to question God. Perhaps it is to them a manifestation of lack of trust or reverence. I do question God because I want to know - Him and His ways. However, in doing so, one must be prepared because sometimes the answer - the truth can surprise us, shock us, or amaze us.
There was one point when I did not question God but told Him point blank that "God, I think You are losing in the battle". Looking back, I am amazed at my nerve to say that. But He does answer all prayers including such irreverent accusations.
The answer: The battle between God and the Enemy had been won by God. It is me and humanity who is in the battlefield. Am I winning or losing? Are there more people winning or losing?
The battlefield is in the choices we make. Winning or losing, how do I gauge that. It depends on the destination where I want to go. There is only one road with two ends. One is the fullness of life and the other is living death. We are battling between life and death always by the choices we make. God wills and desires for each of us the fullness of life but He allows us to make that choice.
Yes, some choices are difficult to make. Sometimes, we can't see if it is life-giving or death-hugging. We are clouded by our fears, insecurities, needs, and pain. There will always be opposing voices enticing us to a particular direction. Still, if one is conscious of the battlefield; Mistakes can always be set aright with another choice.
Yet, the greatest loser in the battlefield is the one who doesn't even know he is in one. Just riding the tides and going along with the times. Just when I thought it was a battle between good and evil, God and the devil, light and darkness; I was just an onlooker getting wounded in the fight.
When we realize we are in the battlefield, we get a chance to examine our lives and where it is heading for. We can put up our armour. We can be aware of the temptations along the way. We realize we are not alone in the field.
When we know we are in the battlefield; We stop trying to win God to our side but rather strive to be on the side of God.
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